“Do you know where you’re going to
Do you like the things that life is showing you
Where are you going to
Do you know”
I was always driven by goals and aspirations. I knew when I was in 8th grade that I would move to Los Angeles after college and work in the entertainment industry. It pushed me and gave me purpose and focus. It also kept me out of trouble for the most part. There were things I simply didn’t get involved in because they weren’t part of the dream. I knew exactly where I was going to and loved the things that life was showing me.
So when the sun rose this morning I reflected on the past week and the question resonated loudly, “where the hell am I going?” Because frankly it has felt like I’ve been going around in circles lately. And between you and me, I’m usually exhausted by the end of each cycle.
It’s easy to push for goals and dreams when you’re 23, single and completely focused. When you’re bringing a previous life along, you can feel like one of those performers on Ed Sullivan who spun plates, constantly running back to make sure the first plates are still spinning as you add new ones.
My dreams and aspirations continue to be many. Some are personal and others are focused on my kids/family. And I’m very much aware of the fact that some simply aren’t getting the time or attention they need or maybe not as much as I’d like to be giving them. I’m hoping this means they’ll simply take a little longer to bring to fruition and am determined to keep them moving forward. But the reality is, I’ve got a lot of freakin’ plates spinning and often find myself running around trying to keep them all going. It’s especially disappointing when you see one fall and recognize that the only reason it stopped spinning was because you were trying to keep too many spinning at once.
As Diana sings;
“Now looking back at all we’ve planned
We let so many dreams
Just slip through our hands”
Well, I’m determined to not let that happen.Need to spend a little time figuring out exactly where I’m “going to.” My kids need to see me achieve my goals as much as they see me supporting theirs. It may take a little longer, but one way or another, I’m going to get there. How about you?